difference in the life of every human being

where we know the origin of a life,
sometimes so severe that accept what is destined god, but have to accept.
silence every day and night are always thinking and asking:'' god why did you give me like this''. everyone booed, everyone discriminates, everyone disgusted, but you create, the god of all religions do not accept my existence, but you create, what should I do?, if I think its quasi be nonsense then where my heart should be anchored??? but all this time I'm stumped with this problem I pobud learned, and try to accept. religious issues only you and I who know this, they said it was lousy, dirty, but this is what you create. I was unwilling to accept. I'm going to be myself what you've created, though they'' foreign eyes.
I live in a country that holds fast to the culture and religion, just the laws of nature but restrained me to make myself not serve to express the real me. that is a discrimination, customary and religious law forbids, but God has created, and now I want to get out of this country to search for identity and the search for a soul mate, but I love it pobud negarak!. I anchored somewhere, somewhere where my heart finds the soul mate I will give all of you! gender issues were not a problem because I created two worlds, only god knows, in my religion also said that mate in the hands of god.
I believe it.
I have prepared all of it in a way that is good and right in the eyes of the law,
I had to find a way through school, I tried to go to school in the country entered graduate, after graduating I tried to find a scholarship abroad, on the occasion I was also looking for a soul mate who had me wait from the first, in which the country can accept what is this myself. oh yeah, even though such a truth, I do not still strong, I run like a normal activity with my friends, so still do not know what is in me, I told you about myself to my dear friend, he was my age, a man, told what it is and I'm sure since he was normal so she still did not believe it, because he thinks in man God only created two properties, and as for that act menyipang it's probably just the game and not from the heart.
That's my story, that's what I have, I hope you accept it because you also have the same thing with what is to me!
Good evening! Warm greetings to you all ...!

 7:11 PM Kediri, January 23, 2013